no coke now....

I haven't had coke in over a week! I have had some soft drink and juice but not much! my blood test came back really nothing to write home about.. my iron is slightly low but that was probably to do with meat repulsing me in the lead up to my period and one type of white blood cell was low but that indicates I was fighting a virus (voila I woke up with a cold on Monday).

I'm thinking of cutting sugar ... completely....... terrifying.  I quit sugar

3 days coke free

....but I have had soft drink. Lemonade and frozen raspberry/passion fruit. today and yesterday weren't particularly healthy days BUT I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I'm just going to pick myself up and make as many healthy choices as I can...

My essay was used as an example of what to do today in class which was great, if not a little awkward... although I'm glad I wasn't used as the 'bad' example. Honours, I'm doing something right.

Emma and I saw the new Daniel Radcliff film, 'The Woman in Black'. gah so cliche scary that I'm probs not going to sleep tonight!

No Coke.

So I'll still drink soft drink when out to dinner or whatever but not Coke. Yesterday I went a whole day without Coke. And I feel shitty. Which is why I'm staying off it.  that said I have been munching on Smarties. Once I've cut out Coke for at least a week I'll be choosing one chocolate product and only eating that (in restricted amounts) until I can eat without excess. And tomorrow morning, I'm off to the Gym!

Journey so far

I ate chocolate this morning, not much but still. I wont be replacing the chocolate I have once it's gone though! that's not to say I wont buy a bar occasionally but for now none of the big blocks or boxes will pass the threshold of this apartment (or at least none I pay for).  I cooked stew and dumplings yesterday which is probs full of carbs but it's filling and I had it for lunch (all I've eaten today other then the chocolate). I've also decided after I finish this can of coke, no more will come in this apartment. big decisions. journey to health and all that.

So I ate:

- Chocolate

-Stew

-Cinnamon toast

-Nutella toast

Since I was last on facebook.

So I've been 'off' facebook, needing to find a link I thought I could get off facebook I ventured into that addictive world. What did I discover? not the link but that 1 former classmate has given birth and another 2 had gotten married...... which  is fantastic! those sorts of discoveries used to make me wonder if I was 'measuring up'...  now I feel good for them and don't feel lacking because they aren't things I want in my life now.  That's not to say that one day I wont want to marry or have children, I just don't know. Its just not what I desire now.

the journey to healthy eating

Today has not started well, 2 lines of chocolate. But it's sunday right? I'll be making my dads famous Irish stew and dumplings which will last the week and maybe catch a film, who knows...

30 before 30

I'm going to compile a list here of 30 things to do before I turn 30... which will be 20th March 2018

1. Visit Europe
2. Re Visit the US
3. Visit Tassie
4. Visit WA
5. Visit NT
6. Live overseas
7. Travel first class
8. Visit 30 new Sydney suburbs
9. Create a quilt
10. Learn to love my family and friends unreservedly
11. Christmas in the Scottish Highlands
12. Watch all 100 films on the Time 100 films list (so far 21/100)
13. Learn to Drive
14. Visit Africa
15. Visit Asia
16. (re)Visit the America's
17.  Get Published in some form.
18.  See the Northern Lights
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freeing myself

I'm slowly working toward freedom. not total absolute freedom. just whatever it is that isn't this. whatever is better. I'm going on a strict eating plan, I've literally just decided this. I miss meals and eat too much and feel generally like  crap. I'm going to see it I can stick to something easy and healthy.

I've also been making plans for next year, I contacted a uni rep regarding a job for next year. He is working on opportunities for me, which may include a massive change soon that will benefit my honours work.  I'm feeling scared and anxious but it all has to be done.